Endorphins are good.

Today I woke up at 3:30 am. I was having a bad dream, it was not scarey, but I was mad in the dream. So I woke up mad and I was mad that I was wide awake. So I got up and decided to make reservations for family reunion campsites. After spending about 2 1/2 hours trying to figure out which ones to pick ( there was no map on the site and little info) I gave up in frustration. I was not happy. I was supposed to go teach skiing which probably would have been standing in line waiting for a lesson. I didn't want to teach anyway since I had a lesson with 2 teenagers on Monday that left me frustrated. I get dressed and start driving...still mad about having to teach and not getting the campsites. I am mad at the radio...they are talking about putting up billboards on the Legacy highway. I call work and they say they don't need me today. Ok that is a plus but I am still grumpy. I turn around and go home and change....I will see if a workout will help. I put on my riding pants which are too tight because I eat when I am frustrated. Winter makes me grumpy and frustrated sometimes. I drive to the gym. I am still mad at the radio and all the dumb people who want to mess up the environment. I do a cycle class...I am feeling better so I make myself do a yoga class. This is my first real class in yoga...I suck! I have no balance and my muscles are way too tight.. but it is ok. I have endorphins now and I am happy. I go to the Forest Service and they help me with the campsites. Yeah....I get them all reserved. I go home and fix the broken TV. All right. It is the small things in life that make it good. Endorphins are good.

My Love, My Life, My Lee

From the first time I met Lee, I knew she could be the girl for me. In fact after our first date, I told my room mate that " I went our with this girl today and I think I could marry her!" A very short 3 weeks later could became must. I knew from the moment I knew that we should be together. And now, 32 years later we are still blazing trails with one another. Lee has made so much out of me! She gives me purpose, direction, confidence, humor, laughter, support, and her love. One of the things I have always appreciated about her is her love of learning. She has a great mind and thankfully our children have been blessed that their Mother was such the driving force of education in our home. I am so impressed with how she thinks. I often tell her she should run for public office because she has much better ideas on how to fix the issues than the ones who are supposed to be doing it! I am sure I have told my children and my children through marriage( BTW I really hate to refer to you as son's and daughters in law! I think the eternal nature of our family takes the in-law out of the equation) that their spouse should be their best friend in life. Lee is certainly mine. So my love, my life, my Lee here's to another 32 years of rivers, oceans, mountains, bikes, boats, and anything else we can find to keep us going together. I love you forever.

My Buddy, My Valentine, My Ric

My mom said, "I didn't raise my daughter to be running around and leaving her husband home!" and she is right she didn't; but she did teach me to be independent and to love life. I suppose if anyone "taught" me to take off and do my own thing it was Ric and possibly the circumstances of life. I have been lucky that I have a patient and loving husband who encourages me to be a "marine" and be all that I can be. There is no one I would rather be with than Ric but sometimes you have to "Tweek" what you want. Throughout our married life, Ric has been gone a lot (not by personal preference but with work). With one job, the kids thought the airport was where he worked since he would fly in on Saturday, go to church with us Sunday, then leave on Monday, returning on Wednesday, do his laundry, fly out again on Thurday morning, only to fly in on Saturday and repeat the whole thing again for a year. When Ric took the job with CarMax, his 6 months away from home turned into two years with him away for 2 weeks then home for a long weekend. We moved 9 times during our marriage with me selling the house 7 times while he was working at his new job in a different state. He was transferred when I was pregnant with Clay and I had to move in the third trimester and find a new OB to deliver him. Only someone who has been pregnant will know how traumatic that can be. I had 3 busy kids, was sick as a dog, and sold a house during the six months I was pregnant with Kelsey. I had to twist the doctor's arm to induce me so Ric c aneould be there for delivery and arrived home from the hospital just in time to show the house to prospective buyers. Anyway the jist is, with Ric way so much, I had to find ways to keep myself sane (yes, that is questionable but I tried). I learned to do thngs on my own if Ric couldn't be there. Now with the kids gone, it is lonely at home and I try to keep busy. I suppose it would be nicer if I loved visiting rest homes, cooking gourmet meals and volunteering in hospitals but right now I have the opportunity to run rivers, ski, hike, kayak, and travel instead of dusting. So I am on a search and research mission to locate all the places Ric and I can go after he retires or on vacation. I am lucky that he supports me in my love of adventure. He is my anchor and keeps me centered always drawing me back home. I am never happier than when we are off together or I am in his arms. I love to bother him and make him laugh. I appreciate that he loves me for who I am as irritating as that may be. He is always happy and positive. He is my better half for sure. I should log on to "iamblessed.com" because I really am.

So when Mom looks at me worriedly, I just smile and think about how fun our reunions are when I do get home from a trip. ...and I look forward to his retirement or his days off when we are together with an anticipated joy. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY RIC!

Staying busy in Winter

At the Aquarium of the Pacific Ric skiiing

Suzan and Skip at Balboa Coronado Island

Harold and I kayaking

I have been keeping busy with skiing and a trip to San Diego. I took off at the pleas of sister to come hang out with her in California. Her husband, Skip, is doing consulting down there and they are staying in a condo on the beach in Del Mar. Suzan hated being on her own so I drove down for some tourist fun. We did a nature cruise out to the Coronado Islands to see whale, sea lions and dolphins. We went to the Aquarium of the Pacific with my brother Brent's family and stopped in at the Orange County swap meet. We shopped, had lunch at a real mexican food restaurant with my sister in law Marisa and walked on the beach. I even got to go kayaking with my good paddling buddy Harold who taught me how to kayak. Skip, Suzan and I went to Balboa Park and went to the art museum, natural history museum and science museum. We had a great lunch there and the trees were actually blooming. Suzan and I visited our aunt and saw a little of Fallbrooke. It was great to be with my sister who is an amazing person even if driving in California freaks her out. (I was the Chauffeur while there.) While driving there and back, I was able to stop and visit my other brother Brian in Vegas. Becky, his wife, is a wonderful friend as well as sister in law and we had a nice lunch and shopping trip. It was nice to have a break from the snow, but this winter has been good so I am not sad to be home. Friday I went skiing with Justin my super son in law (Ashley had to get kids off to a birthday party) and Saturday I skiied with Ric. It was a beautiful sunny day with some great runs. Not a bad month!!